Not my game anymore

Inabilities.... I have a lot of them.... Everybody does... and when I find out one I try to overcome it... in a natural way.... somtimes I succed..... sometimes I fail... If I fail I try again...... but....when It becomes a competition.....when I am put behind somone due to my inability...... when I am compared with someone better in the area...thats not a good feeling.... and then I learn... I sit down... I analyse... I study and I enter the field again... and still... there is no improvement....and still I am unable to outdo the competition.... that really hurts...and I repeat the whole process... again and again... and still... Im behind... and thats when I realise... "NOT MY GAME ANYMORE"